Things I Should H. Said
Verse 1
I keep writing texts I'll never send at 2 AM
Your name still lighting up my screen, then going dark again
Coffee rings on this old table where we used to sit and talk
Before I turned our simple truth into something way too hard
I was scared to say I needed you, not wanted but needed
Your grace, your patience, all the ways you made my chaos quiet
Now I'm staring at these walls you'll never see again
Knowing I'm the reason why we reached this bitter end
Chorus
I'm sorry for the hurt I caused
The weight you carried that was never yours
I only wanted you to be happy
Thought I could be the one to set you free
But I made everything confusing, made it all so messy
When all I really meant to say was please don't forget me
Verse 2
You were my protector, guidance when I lost my way
My white lighter in the darkness, wished you could have stayed
But I was hurting, in a place I couldn't see beyond
Made you carry all my pain until your strength was gone
I disregarded what you needed, what you asked me for
Still hoped somehow you'd love me back, kept wanting something more
If I could go back and change it all, I'd heal before we met
Show up whole instead of broken, spare you this regret
Chorus
I'm sorry for the hurt I caused
The weight you carried that was never yours
I only wanted you to be happy
Thought I could be the one to set you free
But I made everything confusing, made it all so messy
When all I really meant to say was please don't forget me
Bridge
This isn't just attachment, this is love that wants you whole
Whether that's with me or someone else, I just want you to know
You made my life less chaotic while you walked beside me here
And no matter where our separate roads may lead us from this year
I hope you're happy, I hope you're free, I hope you understand
That knowing you was everything, you made me who I am
Final Chorus
I'm sorry for the hurt I caused
The weight you carried that was never yours
I only wanted you to be happy
Now I pray that's what you'll be
Though everything got confusing, though I made it all so messy
My love for you will never end, so please don't forget me
It was good knowing you, it was good knowing you